Introduction: Why blog this?

I've been the absentee blogger - I admit! Guilty as charged!!
Why??? I've been in a relationship for the past year and a half.  Charles, who is now almost 5 and a half,  was pretty good to him and my dog even fell in love with him.. that crazy little Schnauzer whore...lol  However, it's now over and it's time to pick-up and move on and learn from our mistakes and keep the joys and trash- and I mean- literally trash the bad and ugly.
I'm a little too emotional these days so instead of going into great detail, I've actually started writing poetry again, so here is my latest...

2-21-14

A Single Mother’s Sadness

Single mothers bearing the burden of

Shame, guilt, disrespect, and desperateness

Yours will always be a struggle.

Don’t give your heart away freely

For you will have no time to grieve,

No one will notice your pain-

They know you are conditioned

To enduring injustices, putting up with lies,

Allowing people to spit in your face.

Don’t expect a sympathetic hand-up

You will fall, just to fall further

Into despair, don’t give into your

Secretions urging to flow, seeking

Pure burst of bliss of utter joy

Of unbelievable pleasure after

Years and years of solitary torture.

Don’t allow someone to drive the

Sword deeper into your Achilles-

Not your heart, but really where it hurts,

Where not even a child’s precious face-

Smile can wash away the pain, the angst,

The motion sickness…

Brought-on my shock, disbelief that this

Disaster could happen to you,

Yet again.

Wasn’t the last time enough????

But one forgets one is only human, longing for the

Touch of a warm inviting hand on dry skin

Somewhat tarnished by time…

But still breathing faintly beneath it all – seeking

An audience, a comforting ear.

And then life entangles itself and

It seems to all begin to disintegrate

Like towers of a sand castle, the tide

That comes in whose waves are too strong

Just destroy what took so long to precariously build.

And yet while building this SAND castle

Together our of  the fortress that you had

Created on your own, you deceived yourself

In a fogy idealistic dream- so far out of touch

With reality that when it all cam tumbling down

You were in just as much awe as when you

Had that first great orgasm after soooo long.

How could life be so cruel?!?!

Single mothers protect yourselves

Don’t deceive yourselves, ours

Is a cross as heavy has Jesus Christ’s

And somehow, ironically, we are

The luckiest of them all!

Allow me some time to heal, and I will overflow this blog with more great, tips and recipes and movie reviews and book reviews.  
BTW, I've been reading Cameron Diaz's The Body Book, it should be mandatory reading for ALL Moms ,and especially single Moms. You'll also get some great laughs, and I know what some of you might be thinking how can Cameron even write let alone publish a book, good question, she did have help, probably lots of it, but the intention is good and it makes the most common sense I've heard about our bodies as women in a looong time, so just give it a try, Cameron seems like a nice person even if she hasn't gone thru the pains of giving birth yet, jajaja!