I've been the absentee blogger - I admit! Guilty as charged!!
Why??? I've been in a relationship for the past year and a half. Charles, who is now almost 5 and a half, was pretty good to him and my dog even fell in love with him.. that crazy little Schnauzer whore...lol However, it's now over and it's time to pick-up and move on and learn from our mistakes and keep the joys and trash- and I mean- literally trash the bad and ugly.
I'm a little too emotional these days so instead of going into great detail, I've actually started writing poetry again, so here is my latest...
Don’t
give your heart away freely
Allow me some time to heal, and I will overflow this blog with more great, tips and recipes and movie reviews and book reviews.
BTW, I've been reading Cameron Diaz's The Body Book, it should be mandatory reading for ALL Moms ,and especially single Moms. You'll also get some great laughs, and I know what some of you might be thinking how can Cameron even write let alone publish a book, good question, she did have help, probably lots of it, but the intention is good and it makes the most common sense I've heard about our bodies as women in a looong time, so just give it a try, Cameron seems like a nice person even if she hasn't gone thru the pains of giving birth yet, jajaja!
Why??? I've been in a relationship for the past year and a half. Charles, who is now almost 5 and a half, was pretty good to him and my dog even fell in love with him.. that crazy little Schnauzer whore...lol However, it's now over and it's time to pick-up and move on and learn from our mistakes and keep the joys and trash- and I mean- literally trash the bad and ugly.
I'm a little too emotional these days so instead of going into great detail, I've actually started writing poetry again, so here is my latest...
2-21-14
A
Single Mother’s Sadness
Single
mothers bearing the burden of
Shame,
guilt, disrespect, and desperateness
Yours
will always be a struggle.
Don’t
give your heart away freely
For
you will have no time to grieve,
No
one will notice your pain-
They
know you are conditioned
To
enduring injustices, putting up with lies,
Allowing
people to spit in your face.
Don’t
expect a sympathetic hand-up
You
will fall, just to fall further
Into
despair, don’t give into your
Secretions
urging to flow, seeking
Pure
burst of bliss of utter joy
Of
unbelievable pleasure after
Years
and years of solitary torture.
Don’t
allow someone to drive the
Sword
deeper into your Achilles-
Not
your heart, but really where it hurts,
Where
not even a child’s precious face-
Smile
can wash away the pain, the angst,
The
motion sickness…
Brought-on
my shock, disbelief that this
Disaster
could happen to you,
Yet
again.
Wasn’t
the last time enough????
But
one forgets one is only human, longing for the
Touch
of a warm inviting hand on dry skin
Somewhat
tarnished by time…
But
still breathing faintly beneath it all – seeking
An
audience, a comforting ear.
And
then life entangles itself and
It
seems to all begin to disintegrate
Like
towers of a sand castle, the tide
That
comes in whose waves are too strong
Just
destroy what took so long to precariously build.
And
yet while building this SAND castle
Together
our of the fortress that you had
Created
on your own, you deceived yourself
In
a fogy idealistic dream- so far out of touch
With
reality that when it all cam tumbling down
You
were in just as much awe as when you
Had
that first great orgasm after soooo long.
How
could life be so cruel?!?!
Single
mothers protect yourselves
Don’t
deceive yourselves, ours
Is
a cross as heavy has Jesus Christ’s
And
somehow, ironically, we are
The
luckiest of them all!
Allow me some time to heal, and I will overflow this blog with more great, tips and recipes and movie reviews and book reviews.
BTW, I've been reading Cameron Diaz's The Body Book, it should be mandatory reading for ALL Moms ,and especially single Moms. You'll also get some great laughs, and I know what some of you might be thinking how can Cameron even write let alone publish a book, good question, she did have help, probably lots of it, but the intention is good and it makes the most common sense I've heard about our bodies as women in a looong time, so just give it a try, Cameron seems like a nice person even if she hasn't gone thru the pains of giving birth yet, jajaja!
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